topsy-turvey world

Talking with a psychologist today felt good. 

I apologized over and over for using almost her whole box of tissues; but after the session, I knew we had built a rapport.  She was complimentary on so many levels about the burdens I'm carrying, my coping abilities up to this point, my strategies for future coping mechanisms.

At one point I thought I saw the psychologist tear up.  I wanted to say,  "Don't do that.  It's not your problem."  But, I didn't.

My multiple layers of stress . . . Truett's healing and the uncertainty of his recovery, taking care of Mom adequately, the puppies, the cats, Clay, Advent Glass Works,Inc., the breaking of our well pump, light bulbs that have blown out that are way too up high for me to reach.  Heck!  Not being able to see our grandchildren on a regular basis. . . and many more issues!  (By the way, I think the psychologist needs to go to a psychologist after listening to me today.)

It's funny.  Near the end, I said, "Okay.  We can stop now."

But, she wasn't finished.  The psychologist needed to wrap up our session on her terms.  (Do you think that's the "teacher" coming out in me that I have to be in charge by telling her we were done?  Probably.)  

However,  I was also thinking about Truett, who had been sitting in the car for an hour and a half.  This morning he asked, "Can I come to?"

Now, you tell me.  How in the world do I respond to that? 

"Of course you can.  But you have to sit in the car the whole time . . . and you cannot try to get out and walk!"  So,Truett agreed. 

I don't think he understands why I need to see a psychologist; however, today my husband was a kinder, gentler, more soft-spoken man than he has been since being released from the hospital.  I know he worried that I was "telling secrets"; but I wasn't. 

I was only learning how to cope with our topsy-turvey world so I don't break down in Winn*Dixie everytime someone asks, "How's Truett?"

But, hey!  I felt great all day long since that appointment, and I'm looking forward to next week's session with my psychologist! 

Yea, me!

 

Comments

[Nancy]

We all need help at one time or another and it takes a strong person to admit when THEY need it! So, good for you!

[merry jennifer]

I'm so glad you went, and SO glad that it went well. You deserve that hour for yourself.

[Mary Anne Gilmer]

I can just hear you telling her...."ok..good-bye" like you do when the conversation is over and you are ready to move on. Glad you felt comfortable talking with her. Tell Truett that you only tell Lucille, Brenda and I the secrets. Haha!

[Mary Anne Gilmer]

ME...not I.